Relocation Consideration

Louisville, Colorado

LOL ok ok ok OK! Maybe I'm not too serious about considering Louisville, CO as a place to live but dammit, they were ranked #1 on the Best Places to Live in 2009. They have a teeny tiny population of about 18,800 (teeny tiny compared to NYC of course), have great schools, unemployment rate is only about 6.0% which I think is pretty great. And Lord knows I need a damn job! I'm definitely a city girl but sometimes I just can't help but imagine how my life would be if I moved to the 'burbs. For sure it would be a lot more relaxing and super mellow compared to NY. But is that a sacrifice I want to make? More than likely I would be sacrificing the nights out on the town, hopping from bar to bar, leaving my family, leaving my friends.... ughhh that's already too much. I feel like I wanna get away so bad but when I actually get to thinking about how lonely I would be and how much I would miss everyone/everything.... I just don't know anymore. I know NYC is like the "hotspot" it's like the place all the 'burb kids want to go when they grow up n shit. But to me, NY is NY.... I've literally lived here my entire life and I really think I need to get away. Even if it's just for a year somewhere else, just like a test run to see how everything goes. If I hate it, I'll come back and if I love it, I'll stay! OHHHHH you don't know how much I want to do that. But once again, I'm just too pussy to get up and do it. You can't blame me though.... NYC is my life.... I don't have much fam in the states so it's not like I can just go live with "aunt farrah" off in Georgia or some crap! Anywhere I go, I won't know anyone.... well except Germany (where I have a really good old friend) and Florida (where I literally just have 2 cousins, who are married and have no kids my age). So, I don't know. This is a constant thought in my mind. It may be God telling me to go or it may just be my conscious because I know I really want to go. Either way, I gotta do something. Don't be surprised, I swear.... if I don't find a good, well paying, permanent job in the next 2-3 months.... I WILL start looking. I just can't deal with the bullshit anymore.... I NEED A FREAKIN JOB! Ok this post went from living in Colorado to needing a damn job so I'll stop here..... lol 

nitey nite peeps

xoxo